Monday, October 13

he said

what makes you think its okay to play country music when i'm in the car with you?

watching biggest loser:
j- you look skinny
c- ugh i don't feel skinny
j- oh i was talking to the guy on the show...

i ate so many sugar cookies. i feel sick. seriously i'm like a little kid. why did i do that?

i married you so i could have a maid. you've disappointed me so many times.

"we're thankful for the opportunity to go to sleep."

you look really pretty right now. i don't know why.

**i 100% copied brissa with this.

Tuesday, October 7

life update(s)

it was our 4 year anniversary.... a month ago. i seem to be getting worse at this.

the thing about being an adult is that sometimes you don't get to celebrate how you'd like. maybe because getting time off of work isn't an option, or because your husband plans a golfing outing on said anniversary because he forgot (he told me i wasn't allowed to share that. oops! he canceled it, don't worry). so we went out to eat and saw a movie neither of us liked and called it good. and that sounds like nothing special, but at the time, life felt crazy and time together felt rare, and phones/work always seemed to get in the way. so a few hours to ourselves, unplugged, was just what we needed.


jeremy is officially certified in his position at work and we're officially staying in arizona. and while the thought of moving and having new adventures seems exciting, there's a peace that comes with staying. i was driving the other day, as the sky was caught between light and dark, and the whole thing was pink and purple. and though that happens often here, it was so beautiful. and there was something about it that made me feel like this is home, and this is where we need to be right now.

there were talks for a while about still selling the house and moving closer in, but we both decided we like where we are. and when you're on your 3rd house/ward (4th if you count the 6 weeks we lived with jer's parents), that's a really good feeling. to enjoy where you are. to know you'd miss it if you left. its the first time in our married lives we've felt like that, and it's sort of wonderful.


football season is back in full swing and we're loving every second. life is always busier in the fall, but i think i like it that way. and it almost feels good outside. that is if you can survive the mosquitoes that are out for blood (pun intended) this year. but the point is that i walked to get the mail yesterday and didn't drip an ounce of sweat. and even in october, that's an arizona win.


that's all i've got. i'll try to make my life more exciting.


Wednesday, August 13

maybe i'm being too hard on myself

My sister met up with friends recently. Friends she hadn't seen for a while. As they greeted each other, she received a lot of compliments on her hair, clothes and tiny frame. As she told me the story she said, "It got me thinking- maybe I'm being too hard on myself."

And that got me thinking. 

Maybe we're all being too hard on ourselves. 

I have a friend who I admire. A friend I've looked up to since the day I met her. In a conversation between Jeremy and I a while back, he asked me to name three people I want to be like, and hers was the first name out of my mouth. While talking to her one day, she told me a list of things she'd been struggling with. A list of insecurities about her role as a wife, mother, daughter, friend. I honestly couldn't believe what I was hearing. This girl walked on water! There was no way she had issues similar to mine. No way her life was anything but perfect.

But that was my first problem. Believing that her life was perfect was my first and biggest problem.

Remember when I said I have a love/hate relationship with Pinterest? I guess I should have rephrased that to say all social media. Because the thing about social media is that you see what people want you to see. So all those pictures that are posted with perfect captions of perfectly dressed kids, in perfectly decorated, spotless houses, that belong to perfect looking couples who go on perfect dates and perfect vacations are there because that's how most people want to be perceived. Most people aren't going to show you when their house is a disaster, or when date night is spent on the couch with a greasy top knot and no makeup, or when they're three seconds away from ripping their hair out because that perfectly dressed kid of theirs just won't. stop. crying.

I've had to learn that perfect doesn't exist. And whether people post the things they do for fear of being judged, or because they just prefer to keep certain things private, or because they don't want to be negative doesn't really matter. What matters is that we have to remember that perfect isn't a thing, at least not as long as we're human.

Earlier this week I got the sweetest text from a friend who admitted that she's looked at my life and thought, "man she really does have it all." Umm, what? Me? Like, hot mess me? Can't keep my house clean, doesn't cook as often as she should, watches way too much tv, pushes the limits on how many days a person should go without washing their hair me?

That's the thing though. She was looking at my life admirably while I was doing the same thing back to her. Which takes me to the whole point of this.

Maybe I'm being too hard on myself.

Maybe I need to stop focusing on what I don't have, and start being more appreciative of what I do have. Maybe my house looks fine in all its everything-is-from-Ikea-or-Target glory. Maybe I don't need nicer sunglasses, because I always lose them anyway. Maybe it's okay that I can't justify spending money on extensions because my hair seems to manage without them. Maybe my future kids won't win any awards for best dressed, but maybe that doesn't matter because once I have them, they'll be mine and they'll be Jeremy's and after all we will have been through to get them here, what they're wearing just can't be that important.

Maybe my life is wonderful just the way it is.

Maybe I need to stop comparing myself to others.

Maybe I'm being too hard on myself.

***This post was featured on Striving Onward

Monday, August 11

justin timberlake forever

over the weekend my mom, sisters and i went to vegas to see justin timberlake in concert. [my sisters and i were the only ones to attend the concert, my mom played grandma to my two month old niece at the hotel].

if you know anything about me, you know that i was obsessed with nsync as a kid. i'm actually surprised it took me this long to see him.

and seriously? it was a blast. the guy is amazing.
 ^getting ready.

 ^before the show started.

 ^yeah, blurry. but i tried so many times to get the picture when that was on the screen that i couldn't not include it.

 ^pano of when he told everyone to turn on the flashlight on their phones.

^les go girlz

 ^the only picture we got with a real camera before the battery died. oops.

^bad zoomed in iphone pics, but his stage moved so i snapped these while he was in front of us

^two fingers in the air because JT told us to.

^angel baby! seriously i don't think i heard her cry once.

^matching with your sisters is still cool when you're in your 20's right?

the day after the concert we went to the m&m store and the coca-cola store before flying home. at the coke store we tasted coke from around the world, and believe me when i tell you that america has the best tasting coke. count your blessings, people.

we all had such a good time that i think we'll have to start doing yearly girl trips ;)
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